Trying to wave, Not drown

Too wild to be tamed, the tiger inside me roared

I, longed, yearned, craved the ultimate freedom

The unattainable paradise they named
Peace

It was inevitable, some exclaimed

Inadequate, others whispered

Overrated, they complained

But, see, it’s not what others say

That makes you hide away

To get to a point of

Constant displeasure, constant distress

Yelling and Screaming

Till you realise

Your life’s a mess

It’s that self discovery

Plunging into the jungle of your heart

Trying to find what

made you like this from the start

So chained, so bound, so fettered

Black Widow

I’ll just sit here and stare

But stay

Be completely unaware

Please be the innocent flower

And I’ll be the serpent

For I often tire of being the victim

Lay close to me

Yet far away

You’re new and tender

Like a fresh bale of hay

But you’re failing me

Failing to make me smile

Failing to wear the frown

Failing to wear the crown

I’m joking
Along with what I say

I’ll call you my baby

Just for today

But when the sun descends

Hides behind the clouds

I’ll no longer be the one you found

The feigned smile will swiftly fade

Revealing slightly the sharpened blade

You’ll be maimed by explosion

Damaged by erosion

Of the sweet nothings that you imposed on

Thus there I’ll stand

Your final breath

Say you love me

And I’ll bite your neck

The One That Got Away?

As I turn up the volume to what used to be your favourite tune

I’m sharply reminded of our sunny memories

The cheesy phrases

Unsure “babe’s”
The utter respect

“O baby, you’re my constellation”

You used to be mine

And mine yours

Nobody elses’ in this vast land

No…

Complications

Just simplicity, sun, surrounding

The gentle beat contrasts

The sense of disease beaming in my heart

I ran to mama

Asked what to do

When I was no longer “feeling you”

“How is he?”

“I don’t know, if you care so much ask him instead of me”

If I’d tried a little harder

Or you’d talked a little faster

Maybe I wouldn’t have experienced this denial

And ran into the arms of another mans child

But I blocked it out

Too proud

To be rejected

Can’t believe you hadn’t detected

My inner hurt

See I felt for you babe

Like no other

And I know the only one who can save

My broken, wounded and confused spirit

Emotions are futile

Couldn’t it have been more?

Passion so strong

You bang down the door

What I’m trying to say

Trying to

Utter

Is that after months of callousness towards you

I thought I didn’t need to weep

I thought I could just hate

But I needed to babe, I really did!

Because I dug myself in one flirtationship to another

With no meaning and no direction

This just filled me with frustration

And caused me wonder

Are you the one who got away?

If we’re meant to be

God will bring you back

Maybe one day

You could promise me

You’re heart in exchange for mine

And you’ll kiss me again

Like the first time you stole my kirginity

And my heart will burn harder

Or maybe you’ll be my lesson

The one that got away

The Other Woman

He’s the only one

MY only one

If it had been one more day

One more week

Maybe months

Perhaps year

I would not have to hear

About her

Her perfect house

Her perfect spouse

My dirty secret

Our filthy world

Means all he seems to feed me with

Is his sweet nothings

One day we’ll be

One day you’ll see

One day I can take you away

Just to grab

Until then we’re stuck

As he drowns me in sin

I repent every Sunday

Till we fornicate again

“He who disregards discipline despises himself”

But not when I’m in his wealth

Not when he showers me with touch

Not when I’m in luck

For it seems I’ve found him

My bae

The connection we share sweeps me away

His masculinity

It seems to me

Catches the perfect balance with infidelity

Snache

I’m

Hearing truth from their mouths

Hearing lies from yours

Yet the voice I choose to listen to

Seems to be your roar

It’s sweet and subtle

Resembling a butterfly

But stinging like a bee

I think

“You can’t be hurt from what you can’t see”

But that’s wrong

It’s lies

I see the devil flashing in your eyes

A pit full of lies

From the ties you tried bind

I see this a week later

It’s crystal clear

And if you ever try to draw near

I’ll show you true fear

For all the dishonesty, disunity

But most of all disrespect

You met me

ME!

And you don’t even care

Now I see you’re in despair

Desperately needing to be wanted